Bet your bottom dollar

That tomorrow....

There will be sun.

The sun will come out, tomorrow….

I heard this song when I woke up from a dream 6 months ago... But it felt cruel... like the sun would never shine. Like a promise never fulfilled. It echoed like a joke in the wind....empty words. Too many empty words. I awoke sobbing, tears streaming down my face.

But I know now, the sun will come out. It's been shining again. And it feels warm and nourishing. The clouds break and the golden rays stream down instead of tears.

Thank you all for the birthday wishes, kindness, and blessings. This feels like a new year. A new book. A new dawn.

And in a fun synchronicity about sunflowers and sunshine

Yesterday my boys and I stumbled upon a field of sunflowers when we took a walk to the river to play. My kids wanted to pick them… but I shared with them that the farmer worked hard to plant his fields to be able to support his family and we would leave them in the field as they were and just enjoy their beauty. We wouldn’t take what wasn’t ours. My son said, “Just one?” I said, “But if everyone took just one, how many would he have to sell to feed his kids?” He said, “Ooooh that makes sense.”

The next day we went back to the river and the the farmer was harvesting his flowers. The boys played in and by the river. (not the main rushing and polluted one but a clean side spring that fed into the larger river) The man was in the sun sweating, working hard but kept looking over smiling at the boys and me. He finally had 3 large bushels of sunflowers to take to market after hours of work. And as he was leaving we offered to buy some to support him. My son went up and asked him. He handed us a huge handful of fresh-cut sunflowers and wouldn’t take our money. He was happy to see kids outside playing by the river like when he was a kid.

So many little choices I feel like come back around a thousandfold. Even when the world seemed cruel, I did my best to soften in and still serve. And now I see it’s quite literal. What we put out comes back around.

I realize that I quite literally bet my bottom dollar on myself, my happiness, balance, and the well-being of my boys. And I’m just starting to see the sun again.

More backstory on the personal journey if you are just tuning in.